I am so insanely homesick. Last time I was in Korea I hardly ever thought about my home (bad right?). I occasionally missed some friends, or food, or my family but I was completely fine. This time I am constantly missing home! Like I REALLLY miss home TT_TT. My family is honestly the shit! They are so awesome and I really want to be having fun with them and my friends are great too. It is almost like I didn’t realize how awesome they were until I left… even I think way higher about Canada then I used to. Mehhh… any advice for how to deal with homesickness because it is really holding me back </3
Ever have one of those days when you just can’t? Today is that day for me and I am taking it off to recover so I can have some clarity and peace.
I finally finished moving to my new apartment. I was staying in Incheon with my boyfriend’s family till now, which was amazing, but I think it is time for me to be in my own place. Towards the end we were limiting each other because we never had time apart or lives outside of our relationship. I was starting to get clingy, which is never good. Now that I am living close to my school I’m going to try and check out somethings I can join! Tonight or tomorrow I am going to go to Itaewon to sign up for this Korean language hogwon :)! Hopefully that will help me to learn Korean again because I am at a halt in my language learning. Also, I found a really awesome language exchange partner ^^ so I am going to arrange a meeting this week. I think once I start finding my own things my anxiety will go away and I will be much more comfortable being on my own.
So I went to the hospital today to check out that lump and there was nothing unusual. Looks like I am just too fat… good and bad news I guess. Time to go on a serious diet because I am so ashamed and embarrassed i let myself become like this… The cost was $200… so I basically paid $200 to discover I am a fat ass. yay. TT_TT
I was lucky enough this year to be able to celebrate chuseok. My boyfriend’s family invited me to their grandfather’s house for 2 nights. It was really amazing. They live in the country side on their farm so I really enjoyed how quiet and peaceful it was. The chuseok full moon was really beautiful too ^^ and we all made wishes (apparently the tradition). When I was watching my boyfriend wearing a suit and bowing to his grandparents I felt crazily attracted to him haha. I definitely won’t forget! Unfortunately I won’t be posting any pictures because I thought it would be rude to turn respecting the dead into a tourist attraction. I’m really glad that even his relatives seem to like me :)!
Unfortunately this morning I woke up with a really terrible cold (it started a few days ago) and to make matters worse I found a lump on my leg in the shower. It is a soft lump on my thigh and I have no idea when it first appeared. I googled searched “soft leg lump” and the first thing that came up was “soft tissue sarcoma”, which is a nasty type of cancer. yay. It could be nothing, maybe a cyst, maybe i am too fat now and it’s just some fat? I don’t know. I am getting it checked out tomorrow at an international hospital to be safe. I am really paranoid about cancer because about 1 year ago my close friend died from it… the day of his graduation he saw lumps on his arm and discovered he had very developed limp node cancer. He was a super healthy and smart guy and only 24 years old! He died too young, to suddenly, and too easily. Let’s hope I am overreacting and it is nothing!
I’ll write in more detail about Chuseok later, but I am too distracted by my cold and my anxiety about my lump to go into detail.
I thought I would make a quick update! I will start blogging soon~ these days have been crazy!
So I am currently living with my boyfriend’s family. I had pictured the nightmare senario where they all hated me and I couldn’t speak to them because of the language barrier. To my surprise, there isn’t a huge language barrier and some how we can communicate a lot! Also, they seem to really like me :D!!! They took care of me when I was sick (I was sooooo sick), they are always smiling around me, they try really hard to make food I like, etc. I have drank with his family and ate patbingsu with his mom and sister *__*! It really is the perfect situation and I am soooo relieved and happy. (Even his dog likes me!)
Actually, I feel super comfortable here!! ^-^~
Yesterday I met his best friend! That also went super well! There wasn’t a huge language barrier either. Through combining broken English and Korean we spoke nonstop haha. We got a long really well and him and his girlfriend invited us to go on a vacation with them to Busan!
I also got to meet up with two of my friends from my exchange in Daegu in 2012/13. It was so nice to see them again. It felt like I had only been gone a week. :) It’s hard for me to get up to Seoul often tho because I am soo poor!
I’ll post pictures of my Canada trip/ Korea life soon~ ^^
Just a heads up that I am currently traveling around Canada before I head to Seoul! This is why I have been so late answering questions and not posting anything~ I probably won’t be able to check my blog much until July 18th ish! I love receiving all the questions and private messages so feel free to keep sending them and I will answer once I get settled in Korea! ♡